I need help with the two guys I accidentally fell in love with.?

Here's the story I basically fell in love with boy 1 the first time I met him. So at the time I knew he wasn't interested in me, so i wasn't going to waste my time, i never was the type to do that. so stupid old me goes and loses my virginity to an idiot, after this i am addicted to , there is no other way to say it. so eventually i sleep with boy number 2. at first i don't feel anything but then as i get to know him i figure out that there's more to him than everyone thinks. so eventually boy number 1 loses his virginity to moi oh boy **** hits the fan then. now he asks me out stupid old me says yes. this wouldn't be a problem if i wasn't addicted and had anger issues. so stupid old me goes and gets mad at boy number 1. so then i go to boy number 2 house guess what happens stupid old me cheats on boy number 1 but the problem is ive accidentally fallen in love with both of them and i don't know who to choose i need help how do you decide these things?????????